11 days, 11 days to go.
Until next appointment.
Feeling hopeful, please don't crush my hope >.<
Currently CD3. 3rd cycle of 3 to avoid.
Sunday 23 August 2015
Sunday 9 August 2015
So much in my head, so little time to write
Can never remember how much I actually write down.
Things get repeated over and over again in my head, I get sick to death of myself!
Counting down the weeks/days until my next OB/GYN appointment with Dr David Cook. 3 weeks/4 days.
Cannot wait for my repeat blood tests. Worried that I'll come up negative, even though I've tested positive twice previously.
Wondering if the Dr will even bother with the blood tests and just diagnose me anyway; considering my history. However my luck with doctors and doing the right thing by me has been very slim, so not expecting any miracles.
Also wondering, when I get diagnosed and start treatment will I start to feel like a new person? I think in general terms, I am a happy person who tries to think positive and that tomorrow will always be a better day (Thanks Grandma, RIP <3), so I've always ignored what looks like common symptoms of having an immune disorder. I am often fatigued, I get sore joints with the feeling of the flu virus - especially my legs if I stand for more than an hour, I have the highly irritable red butterfly across my cheeks/nose/forehead, dry skin, gritty irritable eyes, I am very sensitive to caffeine which apparently makes all of these things worse and I get sick very easily if I am exposed to many people - like public transport and after invasive surgery I now know I take extra extra long to heal which is a very painful and drawn out business. My body just over reacts to everything! Having lived like this all my life, will I be in for a shock at how good one can feel physically? One can only hope.
Imagine how bad I could of been if I wasn't already a reasonably healthy eater and weight. But then if I was I may have been treated earlier.... what ifs and could have beens do no one any good.
Currently CD21 / 3DPO. 2nd cycle of 3 to avoid.
Things get repeated over and over again in my head, I get sick to death of myself!
Counting down the weeks/days until my next OB/GYN appointment with Dr David Cook. 3 weeks/4 days.
Cannot wait for my repeat blood tests. Worried that I'll come up negative, even though I've tested positive twice previously.
Wondering if the Dr will even bother with the blood tests and just diagnose me anyway; considering my history. However my luck with doctors and doing the right thing by me has been very slim, so not expecting any miracles.
Also wondering, when I get diagnosed and start treatment will I start to feel like a new person? I think in general terms, I am a happy person who tries to think positive and that tomorrow will always be a better day (Thanks Grandma, RIP <3), so I've always ignored what looks like common symptoms of having an immune disorder. I am often fatigued, I get sore joints with the feeling of the flu virus - especially my legs if I stand for more than an hour, I have the highly irritable red butterfly across my cheeks/nose/forehead, dry skin, gritty irritable eyes, I am very sensitive to caffeine which apparently makes all of these things worse and I get sick very easily if I am exposed to many people - like public transport and after invasive surgery I now know I take extra extra long to heal which is a very painful and drawn out business. My body just over reacts to everything! Having lived like this all my life, will I be in for a shock at how good one can feel physically? One can only hope.
Imagine how bad I could of been if I wasn't already a reasonably healthy eater and weight. But then if I was I may have been treated earlier.... what ifs and could have beens do no one any good.
Currently CD21 / 3DPO. 2nd cycle of 3 to avoid.
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