So this is what it feels like to try and not succeed at falling pregnant. Five times I could have fallen pregnant since my D&C on the 7th of April. Nothing, not even a CP or EM.
I well know the heartbreak of losing pregnancies. Now life has decided to show me the pain of not being able to conceive.
WTF did you do to my uterus that has screwed up my body so much.
Why do I always have to have the shit outcome for all my medical dealings.
It's 7 months since I've been pregnant. That's the longest I've gone since 2012. I feel empty.
CD26 / 11DPO BFN
Thursday 19 November 2015
Sunday 15 November 2015
Oh to be a SAHM
Some days, most days, I just want to quit my job and go be with my son. Raise him myself, instead of trusting him to others.
But then, you know, we'd lose our house. Life would be hard. I wouldn't be setting him up for a better life. We wouldn't have a warm, dry home that greatly contributes to a healthy child.
It would be so nice to win Lotto.
Currently CD22 / 7DPO
But then, you know, we'd lose our house. Life would be hard. I wouldn't be setting him up for a better life. We wouldn't have a warm, dry home that greatly contributes to a healthy child.
It would be so nice to win Lotto.
Currently CD22 / 7DPO
Tuesday 10 November 2015
Hughes Syndrome / APS
Haven't updated for over 2 months.
Life seems to be going so slow and yet so fast.
Outcome of my last obstetric appointment was Dr Cook agreed with my notes and the plan is I take 75 mg of Aspirin daily, indefinitely and get pregnant. Well, when he asked if I have any problems getting pregnant I said I don't, only keeping the pregnancies and sustaining their growth. So he only prescribed me 3 months supply. You can buy it over the counter in the chemist though, so no big deal.
I've ovulated 7 times since my D&C in April. I am assuming there wasn't enough lining for a pregnancy the first 2 times. We managed to avoid 2 cycles at my choice before my last appointment. My loving husband was away for ovulation in October, although I was ever so hoping his sperm would survive 4 days and get me pregnant anyway - hey it's happened to me before. But no, no BFP.
Anyway, it was nice finally having a Dr on my side and listening to what I had to say. Even if I did only see him for 10 minutes (he had twins to deliver).
These are the results I showed him:
These results are so hard to actually find definite answers for. I would like to see Rheumatologist and will ask for a referral when I get pregnant again.
I am not satisfied with only having care while pregnant, I want to see someone who can advise me for the rest of my life.
Did I ever say what the results mean? I can't remember. Hughes Syndrome / APS - which makes a lot of sense for me because I have all the symptoms I just never connected the dots.
Anyway, I have hope for an August baby, so here we go....
You were conceived on Monday, the 9th of November. It has been a beautiful week full of summer sun. You could be a winter baby, like your father. Your due date would be the 1st of August 2016. Your sun sign would be Leo, this makes me happy as your older brother is an Aries and your great grandparents (on Nann's side) who I loved dearly were an Aries and Leo.
I saw a chiropractor for the first time ever Thursday just gone, I have had back pain since my son's pregnancy and birth. It was amazing and I am sure has helped my cycle greatly already.
Currently CD17 / 2DPO
Life seems to be going so slow and yet so fast.
Outcome of my last obstetric appointment was Dr Cook agreed with my notes and the plan is I take 75 mg of Aspirin daily, indefinitely and get pregnant. Well, when he asked if I have any problems getting pregnant I said I don't, only keeping the pregnancies and sustaining their growth. So he only prescribed me 3 months supply. You can buy it over the counter in the chemist though, so no big deal.
I've ovulated 7 times since my D&C in April. I am assuming there wasn't enough lining for a pregnancy the first 2 times. We managed to avoid 2 cycles at my choice before my last appointment. My loving husband was away for ovulation in October, although I was ever so hoping his sperm would survive 4 days and get me pregnant anyway - hey it's happened to me before. But no, no BFP.
Anyway, it was nice finally having a Dr on my side and listening to what I had to say. Even if I did only see him for 10 minutes (he had twins to deliver).
These are the results I showed him:
02-Aug-2013
|
Antinuclear Antibody (ANA)
|
Pos 1:160 A
ANA Pattern: Speckled |
03-Jun-2015
|
Antinuclear Antibody (ANA)
|
Pos 1:320
ANA Pattern: Speckled |
02-Aug-2013
|
Lupus Anticoag DRVVT
|
41.0 sec (32-47)
No lupus anticoagulant detected. |
03-Jun-2015
|
Lupus Anticoag DRVVT
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LUPUS APTT: 36.1 sec (22-41)
DRVVT Screen: 1.6 DRVVT Final Ration: 1.8[**] |
02-Aug-2013
|
PTT
|
33.2 sec (23-31) A
APTT borderline |
These results are so hard to actually find definite answers for. I would like to see Rheumatologist and will ask for a referral when I get pregnant again.
I am not satisfied with only having care while pregnant, I want to see someone who can advise me for the rest of my life.
Did I ever say what the results mean? I can't remember. Hughes Syndrome / APS - which makes a lot of sense for me because I have all the symptoms I just never connected the dots.
Anyway, I have hope for an August baby, so here we go....
You were conceived on Monday, the 9th of November. It has been a beautiful week full of summer sun. You could be a winter baby, like your father. Your due date would be the 1st of August 2016. Your sun sign would be Leo, this makes me happy as your older brother is an Aries and your great grandparents (on Nann's side) who I loved dearly were an Aries and Leo.
I saw a chiropractor for the first time ever Thursday just gone, I have had back pain since my son's pregnancy and birth. It was amazing and I am sure has helped my cycle greatly already.
Currently CD17 / 2DPO
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